My Social Media Detox
It's not uncommon to log onto Facebook and see another post announcing someone's exit from social media. I always wondered why people felt the need to make such an announcement, and now here I am, blasting it out to the world that I'm taking a break from the brain fry that is social media. The first time I took a week off SM I didn't feel the need to announce it. I knew life would go on turning and the rest of the world would enjoy their coffee and morning Facebook regardless of my sudden absence. But this hiatus is uniquely mine, an excuse to get back on track, to reevaluate what's really important in my life right now, and to hold myself accountable for what I need to get done. So here I am friends, on my website, my little spot on the web to bare my soul and connect with you, to make my announcement that I am detoxing from social media.
Last night I was laying in bed, exhausted and run down from my weekend full of gigs, barely able to keep my eyes open, but as my habit serves me, I was staring into my phone checking out the latest and greatest pics on Instagram. This has become my favorite past time. Searching through my discover page, finding new pictures to lust over and people to follow, women that motivate me to get into the gym, and food I want to be acquainted with. Before you know it I'm an hour deep, another task on my to-do list unfinished, or another sleepless night...all because I can't put my damn phone down. This leads us to my number one reason for my social media detox:
I need to get shit done!
Over the last few months I've been writing my ass off with some pretty amazing people in NYC. I have big plans for 2016 and an album is the end result. The first step in the process is to be laser focused on the album concept, write a ton of songs so I have plenty to choose from, and take the time to tweak tweak tweak. But it's hard to be productive when every 5 seconds your checking Facebook or Instagram or Twitter....or Snapchat - you get the point - because you have a notification pop up. It's incredibly distracting.
I have a trip scheduled in October to NYC to start the initial recording process with some amazing producers and I need to be as prepared as I can be. So I've turned off all notifications and turned my focus back to my number one priority...write some damn music!
I compare myself to other artists too much.
I think it's healthy to have artists that inspire you, that push you to be a better writer, that push you to take your concepts, marketing, etc to the next level. We all need that kind of inspiration but I'm not talking about those people. When it turns into over analyzing every artist out there and allowing it to make you feel like you're not good enough or that it will never happen...it's time to take a step back and understand why you're doing this in the first place. For the love of music.
The most crucial part of the writing process for me has been self discovery on the deepest level. Really understanding who I am, what I want my music to say and represent, and who I want to be as an artist. I don't feel like you can be truly authentic until you dig deep and understand and accept who you are to the core. Everyone has a story and their own journey. You are where you're supposed to be for a reason, but it's easy to lose track of that when you're constantly comparing yourself to other artists and where they're at in their careers. Marketing is a beautiful thing and can make anyone look their absolute best. It makes it look easy. But the hard work and acceptance of your journey is the beauty of art and creation. Why would I want to cheat myself of that because I let myself believe that I'm not good enough?
I'm starting to development body image issues.
I'm sure a lot of women and young girls would agree that our society puts a lot of pressure on us to look a certain way. I feel like social media has played the biggest part in so many of us ladies feeling insecure and unaccepting of who we are.
Like I mentioned above, social media lets you put your best face forward; every picture can look like a photoshopped, perfectly lit, professional photo shoot. It's enough to make anyone feel like they're not measuring up. I've been a yo-yo dieter for a while and gone up and down with my weight but I've never obsessed over my body like I've done recently. Looking at girls on Instagram, feeling like I'm not skinny enough. Shaming myself for having too many chips or drinking that one glass of wine (okay maybe two or three but who's counting). I remember plenty of times when I was perfectly okay with how I looked and I just lived. I'm ready to get back there. We're all different and again, we have no idea what the other person has gone through to get to where they are. I'm ready to take my journey without judgement from the most critical person in my life - me.
So the first step towards all of this is to take a much needed step back. Write the best songs I can write. Read the stack of books on my night stand. Spend some time looking up at the sky and enjoying the silence. Get back to blogging about my musical journey and maybe even dive back into food blogging a little bit. And probably the most important thing of all...get some damn sleep!
Now let me know if you start seeing me on FB too much. Remind me that I have some music to tend to. ;)
Photo Credit: Vogue